Ennui...

So, lately I've had this difficult time making myself care about the things that I used to have so much patience for at work.
Example - I tend to forget to copy an important department for some output we needed. Yes, I forgot, I admit it. But I find it hard to actually care that the lady responsible for the department is annoyed. I'm sorry, I just don't have it in me to tell you how to do your job, because lately I barely care enough to do mine.
I'm tired of the attitudes, the over-working and the fatigue. Is this worth it?
I just don't care anymore and I have to learn to care. Is something wrong with me that I just see how much harder it has gotten to get past this?
Part of me is worried about this development. It was very sudden - one of my close friends and co-worker's was gone for a week and I had to do his job, and after he came back I was so worn out and tired. I think part of it also is that I had been working on a baby shower and it was more of a chore than doing something for one of my best friends.
It was a great party, but still...the stress leading up to it is something I don't ever want to repeat.

Okay, so I don't feel as chipper as I usually am. Amanda was in town, that was way fun. :)
She's awesome but I totally over ate! I feel gross. Time to go back to eating more controlled amounts of food.

Haha, I'm about to start listening to Eminem too. This isn't going to help my depression.

I need real time off - or real time away from everybody. I need to go somewhere and be free and alone and just scream out loud or something. LOL - it'll be cathartic.
What is cathartic? According to google it is:

• emotionally purging
• purgative: a purging medicine; stimulates evacuation of the bowels
• strongly laxative
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Oooh, I don't like the second one or the third one. LOL.

FYI...Joel McHale is a hottie.
And Chelsea Handler is hilarious.

This blog is everywhere. :)

I'm feeling a bit better. Got any advice?

The one party no one wants to be invited to....

Is a pity party.
And here I am, on a Friday night, at home waiting for sleep to overcome me.

Anyone have any idea why I don't seem to get any guy attention on match.com? Seriously, only the old uggos come after me. What does that say about me?
Maybe it's not me? Except, well, I am the common thread. Anyhoo - Party over. I just needed to get that out.

It's been a while for me to write anything. Let's see....Quick Review:
1) I got a "promotion". All the work and responsibilities of a boss without the pay, but I get OT so it balances out.
2) Went to NOLA and LOVED it. That city is beautiful. The homes are just breath-taking, and I was almost speechless. (That's a lot - I'm a major chatterbox.)
3) Working crazy hours but somehow still making it and loving my job. Now if I could only be sure I'd have a job next year it would be perfect.
4) I've been longing for some special man to share my life with. So far no one has really appealed to me, or I've not appealed to anyone. Well, my life is cheaper with 1 person anyways.
5) Finally watched a Dollyrots show! Love them! And the guys are hot!
6) I've been getting a little too drunk a lot more lately. I'm a silly drunk by the way. But I tend to want to run away. The inhibitors I keep up that have always kept me from running away when I'm NOT drunk, are lowered and then I begin to wander. Props to Steve for reigning me in.
7) Capoeira is a blast! I've got muscles almost everywhere, now if I could only get rid of the fat.
8) I'm supposed to be getting decor for the baby shower next weekend and I got nothing. Damn.
9) On the plus side, one of my best friends will be coming by. She's way cool and I'm so happy!
10) I'm coming back to You.

Check ya laterz....