So, today I left work with my friend and co-worker mad at me. We had started to bicker over the fact that I won't indiscriminately approve his PTO, and how he could retaliate against me. And I just shut up.
I didn't want to fight anymore and I didn't want to throw something out there that would hurt our friendship.
I'm tired of him trying to manipulate me into doing what he wants. I feel like I can't even make my own decisions without him second guessing them for me.
I'm tired.
And then afterwards, I just felt so heartrendingly lonely. That feeling of, no one will ever want me as I am and I have no desire to change. Actually, I change all the time, but it feels so sad to be alone.
It's not that bad you know. I'm not dying or in serious pain or anything. Mini-pity party!
That's it for now~
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